There was a time in my life when, from the outside, I had just about everything I had ever wanted. I had built successful businesses, made millions of dollars, owned beautiful homes, traveled on private jets and spent time with celebrities, politicians and people most of us would consider extremely successful.
At one point, I was making $17 million a year. My net worth had grown to more than $100 million.
If you had shown the younger version of me that life and said, “Henry, this is where you’re going,” I probably would have thought I had won the lottery. This was exactly what I had been working toward. I had worked incredibly hard to get there, and by the traditional definition of success, I had made it.
So why was I miserable?
That question bothered me for years because it didn’t make any sense. I had the money. I had a wonderful family. I had the homes and the toys and access to things I couldn’t have imagined when I was starting out. Yet I was overweight, constantly dealing with negative emotions, unable to sit still, and carrying this feeling that no matter what I accomplished, somehow I still wasn’t enough.
For a long time, my answer was to keep going. Maybe the next level would finally do it.
It didn’t.
I Thought Success Would Fix Everything
When I was younger, I believed money would solve most of my problems. I don’t think that’s unusual. If you’ve ever worried about paying the mortgage, keeping a business alive or simply having enough money left at the end of the month, financial success looks like the answer.
And to be clear, money does solve a lot of problems. I am not one of those wealthy people who is going to tell you that money doesn’t matter. I’ve had money, I’ve lost money, and I’ve built it again. Having financial security is a hell of a lot better than living in constant fear about how you’re going to pay your bills.
The mistake I made was expecting money to solve problems that weren’t financial.
I had spent years building an image of success, and eventually that image became part of my identity. The business was successful, so I was successful. My net worth was growing, so I was doing well. People saw the homes, the lifestyle and the accomplishments, but they didn’t necessarily know what was happening underneath all of it.
In the older version of my story, I described it very simply: my net worth had become my self-worth.
That’s a dangerous equation because money changes.
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When Everything Started to Fall Apart
The financial crisis of 2008 hit my world hard. Financial problems were followed by lawsuits, investigations and years of uncertainty. Suddenly, many of the things I had used to measure myself were being threatened at the same time.
What surprised me wasn’t simply how frightening it was to lose money. Of course that was frightening. What frightened me more was discovering how much of myself I had built around being Henry the successful businessman.
If the money disappeared, who was I?
If the business collapsed, was I still successful?
If people no longer saw me as the guy who had made it, did I still feel good about myself?
Those were much harder questions than anything on a balance sheet.
During that period, I struggled badly. I had spent so many years concentrating on financial success that I hadn’t developed the balance I needed when that part of my life began to collapse. I kept functioning and doing what needed to be done, but inside I was dealing with fear, anxiety, depression and an enormous amount of uncertainty.
It forced me to confront something I had avoided for most of my life. I had become financially rich, but I hadn’t built the rest of my life with the same attention.
Success Can Become an Addiction
One of the strange things about success is that the more you achieve, the easier it becomes to convince yourself that you just need a little more.
You hit one financial goal and immediately create another one. You buy the house you dreamed about, and eventually it becomes simply the house you live in. You buy the car, enjoy it for a while, and then another car catches your attention. Your business hits a number you once thought was impossible, and suddenly that number isn’t enough anymore.
I know this pattern because I lived it.
There were absolutely exciting times in my old life. Flying around on private jets with wealthy friends was fun. Beautiful homes are enjoyable. Having money gives you opportunities and experiences that are wonderful. I’m not going to rewrite my history and pretend I hated every minute of being rich. I didn’t.
The problem was expecting those experiences to create something inside me that they were never capable of creating.
The excitement always wore off.
Then I was looking for the next thing.
What Was I Actually Chasing?
This became one of the most important questions of my life.
Why did I need to be so successful?
I could give you all kinds of respectable answers. I wanted security. I wanted to take care of my family. I wanted freedom. I wanted to build something important. Those things were all true.
But they weren’t the entire truth.
Part of me was trying to prove something.
I wanted significance. I wanted recognition. I wanted to know that I mattered. Like a lot of people, I carried feelings of inadequacy that didn’t disappear simply because my bank account got bigger.
This is where I think we misunderstand ambition. Ambition isn’t bad. I still believe in dreaming big, building businesses, making money and creating an extraordinary life. The question is what is driving you.
There is an enormous difference between building something because you’re passionate about it and building something because you’re desperately trying to prove that you’re good enough.
From the outside, those two people can look exactly the same. Inside, they’re having completely different experiences.
Losing Money Taught Me Something Making It Couldn't
I would love to tell you that I figured all of this out while sitting comfortably in one of my homes, looking at my bank statement and thinking deeply about the meaning of life.
That’s not what happened.
I learned many of these lessons when things went wrong.
The financial crisis and everything that followed forced me to look at parts of myself I had been able to ignore while everything was going well. When the financial pillar I had relied upon began to shake, I discovered there wasn’t enough underneath me to create real stability.
Eventually I understood that I had spent much of my life confusing riches with wealth and happiness with fulfillment. That distinction became one of the foundations for how I live today.
Real wealth, for me, now includes money, but it also includes my mental health, my physical health, my spiritual life, the people I love, my sense of purpose and the freedom to actually enjoy the life I’ve created.
I still believe in making money. I still believe in success. I just don’t ask either of them to do a job they can’t do.
What Does Success Mean to You?
You don’t have to make $17 million a year to discover what I discovered. In fact, I hope you don’t have to go nearly as far down the road as I did before asking yourself some of these questions.
What are you working so hard for?
What do you believe will happen when you finally reach the number you’ve set for yourself?
Maybe you want enough money to stop worrying. Maybe you want to travel. Maybe you want to build a company, take care of your parents, send your children to college or never have to ask anyone’s permission to take a month off.
Those are real goals.
But if the answer underneath your ambition is, “Then I’ll finally feel like I’m enough,” I would pay attention to that.
I tried that route.
It is very expensive, and I’m not talking about money.
Today, I don’t measure success by one number. Financial prosperity is important to me, but so are my health, my state of mind, my relationship with the Divine, my family, my freedom and whether I can actually enjoy an ordinary day without needing something extraordinary to happen.
I had to make millions, lose a great deal, and rebuild parts of my life before I understood that.
My hope is that you can learn it a little sooner.
What I Wish I Had Known
My upcoming book, Prosperity Principles: The Four Pillar Plan to Freedom, is the story of what I learned about creating wealth, losing balance and eventually discovering a very different definition of prosperity.
I share the successes because they taught me something. I share the failures because, frankly, they taught me more.
If you want to build financial success without losing yourself along the way, I invite you to join the waitlist for Prosperity Principles.
If you’re ready to create your own definition of success and build a life with both wealth and fulfillment, I invite you to join the waitlist.
